Mama Part 1

Agony, so distraught, grieving with true pain,Another sharp corner and I’m screaming your name. I hate how time passes, not one comforting word,Like a sheep among wolves, I feel lost in the herd. Before your cruel passing, wished I’d said goodbye,Maybe then I could let go of the day that you died.

God denied me the chance to say goodbye and thank you for the life you gave me, the sleepless nights thinking about “us” your kids, the love you gave us unconditionally, when I lay in bed I always stop and think of the last moments I  had with you, the last word you told me, you actually promised to get well soon, but mum that’s one promise you never fulfilled…One promise that I can’t let go…

The day I saw you in the coffin I lost the part that made me complete, “You”  you that taught me everything that I needed to know, you that gave me life, you that I can’t ever replace in this world, you that saw me through my trying and complicated times, you that always listened to my crap life stories about what I did, what I want to do, what I think I should do, what I need to do and what…. when I lost the strength you sent an  angel who held my hand, She wiped away my tears and helped me understand.

Our time on earth is brief, there’s lessons to be learned,Each precious day God gives us another page is turned.

Every chapter full of memories, times of joy and tears,Triumphs and defeats, through every passing year.She loved us unconditional, always by our side,When no one else would listen, in her we could confide.With gentle words of wisdom she led us on our way,Down the paths of righteousness if ever we did stray. She saw the light in everyone and gave with no regrets,Always from her heart let’s us not forget.Angels come in many forms, for me it is my mother,  With love I cannot say in words there’ll never be another.

Every day I turn the page in my heart will ever remain,  Everything she taught me as I stroll down memory lane.  Thank you God for giving me the most priceless of all treasures,Help my Lord to keep alive her memory here forever.I pray that I can some day be everything she hoped I would,  That’s she smiling down from heaven knowing she did good.

Gods called her to his heavenly home, part of his great plan, although it may be hard, we all must understand.Faith is what is hoped for, things we cannot see,Heaven is promised to all of us if only we believe.

Yes, I’m still lost, Mom I loved you so much,Days have gone by, still remembering that touch.You taught me to laugh, held me when I cried,Told me not to be scared of the day that you died.
You hid all my secrets, to you I’d confide,You were everything to me, Mom, why’d you die……